When you uncover feelings from when you were little, it can be earth-shattering. Until yesterday, I never thought I was afraid of my abuser. I always associated the fear with not wanting to get in trouble. But yesterday I realized that at some point when I was little, I was afraid of him. 

I don’t even know how to begin to cope with this. It changes everything.

Excuse me while I go spend the rest of the day trying to numb this…