Today was a hard day. I struggled for most of the day with emotions and flashbacks. It’s the first time in a long time, maybe months, that I’ve had this much trauma stuff come up in one day. I think I’m just angry. I am so incredibly angry. I don’t even know what I’m angry about. I need a break from life. I am tired of constantly telling my husband to please not spend any money and then he spends it anyway. I am tired of having an almost 3 year old who argues with every fucking thing that I say. I am tired of trauma. I am tired of working multiple jobs. I am just plain tired. I should be less tired on Sunday nights than I am on Friday nights….but no, I am always more tired. I need a vacation. Just me. Away from this thing called life.

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