I tell myself that I am stronger than this, but I don’t feel it. I know I’ve been through worse, I’ve gotten through worse, I’ve addressed worse. But I don’t feel like I have the strength this time. The shame I feel today is greater than anything I’ve felt in this journey so far. My anxiety is making it impossible to function. I am alone… and I choose to be… I deserve to be. My past is filled with horrible things. And I just can’t take anymore today. Going to sleep… because I don’t trust myself when I’m awake.